I am so....

 

I am ...

Angry

Like to  to spit fire

Nothing now I desire

I am...

Sad

Want to painful spiral out

Avoid a nervous bout 

I am...

Lost

Want life's mirage fade

From the oasis of life 

Roam in hills and shades

I am...

Mad

Throw stones at others 

Tear off my hair 

But,who will care?

I am...

Depressed

Want a full stop period end  

Not a bloody comma

Away from dubious drama

I am...

Frustrated 

Failed relationships gawking 

Desires refused walking 

Will the crossroads end?

Before I Bid Adieu ……

 

Submerged in past bundles of dreams

Maple leaves dotting your stone

Resting date on epitaph loudly screams

But, a bird in me remains silent and alone

I sprinkle vivid colours and lush

A canvas strewn with sinful escapades

Vicious thoughts continue to crush

Prick my heart with sharp blades

Oh, my dear painful memoirs

Conclude your melodious cuckoo call

I will applaud you last under the stars

Before I bid adieu to one and all

Shaking off the dusty confessional rugs

Who I was, I should not give a damn

If I wipe my house off past specks

Surely, I will turn into who I am

Bitter Sweet.......

*****

You were once a yellow citrus

Plummy fresh with satin texture

A light crush of love litmus

Turned me red with pleasure

A drop of bitter sweet nectar

Was enough to make me tingle

We joyed and soared together 

Gentle squeezes did intermingle

Satanic lure of sunny shores

Greenbacks overlapped yellows

Grass looked greener in other doors

Landed you in softer pillows

You still remain a lemon

But seedless sliced arc genie

Alluring with horny demon

Mocking on top of martini

Reinvent yourself yet again

Shoo away the weeds awkward

Let there be showers of rain

Sow your seeds in my open orchard

*****